if i sold my soul for a bag of gold...

03:07 pm - the return of the Letter

well, i'm here again, all healthy and well...um, i'm not sure if anyone still reads this anymore, have i become old entertainment? am i really no better than reality TV and cop shows? eeh gad, i hope not!

anyway, just thought i'd pop on and say hi, if people still read this please add a post so i know and i may well continue to update it, so anyone who still finds my unique, cynical and eccentric style of personality not out of fashion, let me know and hopefully i'll do something about it...maybe not tho, but most likely.


oh i have a myspace, i'm keeping up with the kids :P www.myspace.com/mindlessblur

sooo, i moved the other week, i have a real house now so yay, i live with a friend who has the net and all, go me! :D raaaah

anyway, i'll keep you all posted if theres anyone still around to keep posted...hope to hear from y'all soon

katch
j

Current Mood: curious

01:18 am - thirty-first of july, two thousand and five

i'm sure i have bi-polar emotional disorder, or at least theres something chemically wrong in my brain...i just don't know, i need help :(.
Katch.
J.

01:12 am - thirty-first of july, two thousand and five

"Eraser"

Need you
Dream you
Find you
Taste you
Fuck you
Use you
Scar you
Break you
Lose me
Hate me
Smash me
Erase me
Kill me

-J.

Current Mood: deep-seeded depression

12:53 am - thirtyth of july, two thousand and five

well, i'm back again for a short time to update all of you wonderful people on my life, i'm doing wonderful, apart from the fact that fiona (long time readers will know fiona was the girl who i intended to marry) found another bf, oh well easy come easy go, i gained and lost a job at sanity and i now live alone in a bungalo in the back yard of a familys house, sounds stale, i know, but its not...so there.
well, anyway, i'm sitting here in my mates room, petey, he used to live at res (for all you long time readers...again) and jim (lives at res still) are playing burnout3 on the xbox and i'm sitting at the comp writing this...we have many goodies such as cheesles and KFC. its so good seeing petey again and chillin with the guys, i haven't seen him in sooo long, its the first time in ages we haven't got high while chillin but i like it cuz its a chance to catch up and just be friends again.
Its weird chillin with these friends again, cuz last year i lived with them and saw them every single day, now they're not a part of my everyday life i can't understand how i just seemed to take them for granted without even meaning it. it's weird realising i lived with them, they were house mates and.......anyway, some faggot 80's song got it right when they sang "you don't know what its got til its gone".
anyway, enough soppy shizzit, i've kinda run outta stuff to write, how sad...i've been gone for over 6 months and i only have enough for a stale ass tiny update, oh well, i guess its better than nothing, oh also, i'm a lot happier than a was for the past year and a half, i've decided the only person who can make me happy is me, not everyone else, so i'm taking it upon myself to get a healthy mind and body...yay for me, ok, i'll update soon-ish when you all think i'm dead again and surprise you with my alive-ness. Have a good one.
Katch.
J.

06:07 pm - first of december, two thousand and four

hey guys, me again, just had a bad day is all, i'm fine n dandy now tho..........oh and by the way i appreciate all the comments.

anyway.

today i went to mini golf with fiona, it was damn fresh, the whole course was set up in a mill. hmmm, you all know i'm alive now so i go back to hermiting for a while, oh wait i'm moving back home in colaca on friday cuz we haven't found anywhere to live yet so i'll be on the net a fair bit over the next 2 months, then i'm hopefully coming back to geelong.....i can't stay in colac too long, i'll die :P
-J

Current Mood: entertained

06:21 pm - november 23rd, 2004

i hate my life and everything in it, right now i feel like smashing everything that has ever been created. i feel like un-doing everything that has ever happened in the world, i want to be anti-matter, i want to be the anti-christ, i want to be dead.
-j

12:49 pm - eighteenth August, two thousand and four

i know i'm going to regret this, but i don't care who reads this, as long as the one person thats MENT to does.

Minna, i love you, theres different ways we can work this out.

anyone who doesn't know minna shes a girl from ohio that i've never met before, and yes, we fell in love over the net, so theres no REAL contact or anything, so you have no right to get jealous, i'm going now, anyone who wants to slag on me go ahread, its what i deserve.
-j

12:34 pm - eighteenth August, two thousand and four

i wish i didn't have to live with this life, i want to be able to fix it all, but i can't, i'm weak cuz i'm stuck :(
-j

12:04 pm - Third of August, two thousand and four.

the idea that theres one person for everyone in the world is rediculous. i mean seriously, theres like 6 billion people in the world, to think that only one person is out there that will make you truly happy is an insult to the human race and free will.....i don't know what i mean by this or why i'm writing it, but i am and you're reading it, which makes you just as bad as me.
the end






two good names for a fake I.D:
1) Johnny Root
2) Haggas McBoner

Current Mood: scattered

12:25 pm

is anyone else old enough to remember the REAL dolmio pasta sauce guy? NOT the puppet, the gfuy that the puppet was modelled over? what ever happened to him? did he die or something? just curious
love jhay (tries trendy spelling of name to appear as though he has more class)

03:59 pm - sixteenth of july, two thousand and four

( a quiz whoring i will go. )

02:45 pm - sixteenth of july, two thousand and four

i bought new strings for my guitar yesterday, i can play again yaaay...well thats really a matter of opinion, but at least i can still strum chords luverly yaaaah. hey nicole, if you still read my journal i can play heart shaped box yaaaaaaay and some such.
bye
-j

07:10 pm - the boredom sets in

fucking 2028...fucking stupid internal clock's on friends computers...i mean really, who the fuck has their clock set to 2028 AND NOT TELL ANYONE ABOUT IT??? fgucking racheal and josh, thats who, altho i love them, i now hate their computer with the strength of a thousand angry frowns!
-j

P.S. i just wrote a post about how fucked up the time is on my LJ and i forgot to change it so it would post....just a thought.

P.P.S i dyed my hair, its now UV black

07:02 pm - the boredom sets in

somedays aren't even worth getting out of bed for.
oh and i can't smoke PJ ultra mild cigg's either, i realised that todat after getting half way through one and dry reaching......i don't understand, its only got .4 mg tar, the ones i smoke are .12.....one of the mysteries of life...but anyway yaaay to peter styvensen's cigg's other wise i'd throw up after every ciggarette.



You are trent
Musical and Insightful, if only you could wake up
on time.


What Daria Character are You?
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01:59 pm

What internet acronym are you?
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i didn't even know there was such a thing.

03:35 pm

I'm bored... look at the shit I do to pass the time-

LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Jay Maddern

-- Birthplace: Melbourne, Australia
-- Gender: Male
-- Eye Color: green/blue/yellow
-- Hair Color: naturally brown, but its UV black atm
-- Height: 5'11''
-- Righty or Lefty: Left
-- Zodiac Sign: Gemini

LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: um....australian...british i guess
-- The shoes you wore today: B+W Converse Chuck's
-- Your fears: Being alone from friends and loved ones forever
-- Your perfect meal: Pizza: so many options on one food
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: Start a successful recording studio

LAYER THREE:
-- Your thoughts first waking up: does ANYONE really know what they think when they wake up? like does anyone have a set pattern of thinking for their firsdt 2 seconds of waking?
-- Your best physical feature: eyes 
-- Your bedtime: whenever i crash
-- Your most missed memory: simpler times
LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds
-- Single or group dates: Single
-- Adidas or Nike: um...i care not
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: i luuurve lipton peach flavoured ise tea.
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: coffee

LAYER FIVE:
--Smoke: since a few months ago yeah, stupid res life, messes me up hehehe
-- Cuss: too much
-- Sing: uh huh..i dunno if i can or not tho, some say i can, some say i can't...but i continue, as i'm persistant
-- Take a shower: Yes, of course.
-- Have a crush: uh huh
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes
-- Want to go to college: i'm doing TAFE atm, which is kinda the poor man's uni
-- Liked high school: being the weirdest kid in the year didn't help me at all
-- Want to get married: most likely
-- Get motion sickness: nup
-- Think you're attractive: on occasion, but not usually
-- Think you're a health freak: most times, i don't fit in well with 'people'
-- Get along with your parent(s): my dad's a pothead who i always feel arkward around, since i've never lived with him, and i get along pretty well with mum, we have our arguments, but who doesn't?
-- Like thunderstorms: uh huh
-- Play an instrument: yaaaaaaay music question, yeah i do play instruments, saxophone, guitar, and sing in a band..well used to, we have a cd yaaah.

LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: no
-- Smoked:yes
-- Done a drug: yes
-- Had Sex: no
-- Made Out: ...um, i think so, a month is a long time
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall?: yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No
-- Eaten sushi: No
-- Been on stage: no
-- Been dumped?:no
-- Made homemade cookies: no
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: yes
-- Stolen anything: No

LAYER NINE:
In a guy/girl...
-- Best eye color?: different eyues, ones that make me just look at them and go "woh"
-- Best hair color?: hmmm, fudge blue, like bright bright blue, soooo sexy!! 
-- Short or long hair?: longer
-- Height: short
-- Best weight: average
-- Best articles of clothing: tight jeans look amazing on chix...or anything with black and red stripes, they make me melt

LAYER TEN:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 1
-- Number of piercings: big fatty zero
-- Number of tattoos: again, none

-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: i think like 8 or 9 times, most with the band, once was a month ago roughly when i got held up at knife point and the ass stole my mobile...anus flicker.
-- Number of scars on my body: uuurm, like 12 or 13
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: i try not to regret anything, but everyone has a few.

02:54 pm

( 80's-90's quiz stolen off bonnie_mary )

Current Mood: nostalgic

02:57 pm

Current Mood: pretty good

09:31 pm - George Jung

George Jung & Jjohnny Depp

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that movie movies me more than anything else i think i've ever seen. you all must go out and hire Blow

Current Mood: contemplative

02:10 pm - breathing...just

i'm still alive...just in case anyone actully DOES check my jopurnal now and then anymore to see if anything exciting is happening with me...well its not, i'm still unemployed trying to find work and still live in a shitty one bedroom unit....i truly can't wait till life starts actully getting enjoyable to be in.
Love
-J.